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Sian Max.
Saturday, May 21, 2011 || 5:54 AM
So sian.
Come back from church.
Church like everytime so hyper. Feel so left out sometimes. Shit max. That's what you get for not joining Youth Cell. And that's what you get for changing church when you're supposed to be in the Youth.
Sucks. I never get the choices. Is this even my life?
I can't choose what school I want to go if it doesn't pass your grade. You didn't even consider what people coming from that school had to say.
I can't choose which church I want to go. And you every time say that I get to make the choices.
I can't go out when I want to. And you say I get more freedom than both my siblings.
Life is bullshit.
Aimless.
When you find something worth it, hold on to it. That's what I've learnt.
You lose it, you lose another aim in life.
When you lose all the aims in life, there's no point in it.
When there's no point, what do you do?
You take the coward's way out. You JUMP.